A camp that had so much, yet so little

Well long time no blog. But i guess i really have the urge to now. not that i want aniione to come here and read this. but i juz feel that i have to sae it all out. organize them so tt i can c how i realli is feeling now.ALC is over. this is mi last one. and i have to sae that i left wif mani regrets. thou we finallie won the house shield. the one which we realli fought so hard for 2 yrs.
ALC
Annual leisure camp this yr well if juz tok abt overall its quite fun.if im nt wrong better than laz yr. maybe becoz its planned by mdm serene and laz time it was by sir junyang. haha. maybe sir junyang is juz not as creative and fun loving.anyway this alc realli exposed the flaws of our alpha house, which even i miself was surprised at how we were realli raping everibody so hard b4 alc. Well maybe its juz fairness. or fate. that we dont have ani std4 nursings durign the camp.suyee came at night. bt by then 4 activities pass le. and i think.Lacking an uppersec nursing realli is sad becoz its juz immense difficulty to communicate and make the nursings(std1s) feel comfortable.nt tt is impossible.its maybe also mi fault coz as a house leader i doubt i had done well in making alpha a lively house. i shld have been even more daring like kristian. but aniwae i think our fruitless attempts in trying to talk to the std1s dampened our own spirits as well.it is juz our luck that we dont have an extremely outspoken junior like moses(thou maybe hes too noisy) or someone like jason who is not tt shy. ck was a bit lonely in the first dae as kok swee was not there. but i realli thank him for the wae he put in his 110% for the social night. yahui as well. THey 2 realli impressed me as i didnt noe whether they can shang1 ren4 to their roles or not. so althou we didnt win social night, i still muz thank eveione for trying our bez. and kristian, sorry for making u injured, even if u sae its nt mi fault, i still feel a bit bad coz its me who did tt choke slam which lead to the accident. take care. anyway back to the camp. so much abt fate and luck.one of the games, that attacker defender paper ball game was juz sad. i dunno y other houses plaed till such a extent, where i was realli pissed at how they sort of cheat. maybe im juz being self centred over here. but i juz feel that what they did during that game was nt fair. well at leaz im proud to sae that we alpha plaed by the rules. and we were nt gay as to tell our nursings to put all the paper balls under their butts or juz simply lie on them. that kills the fun of the game. i dont mind if we lose. but i juz dont think its fair, esp i can think how the std1 nursings in mi house muz had been tormented by e fact that we started wif the second moz amount of paper ballz and in a blink of an eye onli one was left. or maybe it was juz done to bad strategy by me as well. maybe i cld have juz staed behind as a defernder.but well too late for such regrets and maybes. well in the end what we did for the salad was still nt bad, considering the fact that we were realli relyiing on the leftovers following the bidding wars. anyway another factor why i flopped as a house leader was becoz of mi lack of atttention on cheers b4 the camp starts.maybe becoz the rez of us from std2s to std4s are juz too overly self motivated ppl.u can notice a pattern that we dont ralli cheer a lot.not onli for this camp- actly.maybe we juz get pumped up easily and dont even need external cheers for motivation. but i failed to see that that is excatly what can make the std1s high. we thot that they were ppl who had desires to win that were as big as ourz.we thot thot they were ppl who are willing to fight for alpha like what the rez of us of std2 to 4. i juz totallie forget that they will moz probaly be overawwed by everthing ard them, and why everibody is so against alpha. maybethey feel pressurized as well.well i doubt ani hosue had ever came into a leisure camp b4 directly being put against the entire corps. and yet the std1s still cant find enuff support from even their own house members. n it is our fault that we didnt welcome them in the right wae. we didnt even involve them enuff. i shld hve juz let them take centre stage in the social nite. maybe that wld have make them more excited for the camp. maybe we shld have juz started everithing wif tge std1s. but i think the rez of us juz gt too obessesed and engrossed and neglected them. what a grave mistake.haiz. althou the std1s did not sae anithing, i realli wonder if they regret coming to alpha. becoz durign this whole camp, right till the end, it looked as if alpha has juz been the saddest house being raped ard. giant apologies for std1s coz this shld be the camp they realli enjoy and feel integrated into sj and their respective houses.i think moz houses has done that, but alpha is sitll some distance awae from it. hopefullie, by sec one comp everithing will be fine. but im not even signing on, so evenif i wanna watch alpha grow and continue to be strong, i wont have much chance. its realli sad that i left alpha sadly, not on a high, even thou we were consoled wif the fact that we still won the house shield, by a mere whisker.o man now i realli hope that we can hav alc again. and i promise we will do much better. but damn we cant cry over spilt milk animore.haiz. k la.this isnt actly the end of mi long evaluation. but i shall stop here.next time then continue saeing. when i reorganize mi thots again.
see ya.
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