i am barthez

Saturday, December 31, 2005

supreme we shall be in the coming yr

Oh it seemed forever stopped today
All the lonely hearts in London
Caught a plane and flew away
And all the best women are married
All the handsome men are gayYou feel deprived
Yeah are you questioning your size?
Is there a tumour in your humour,
Are there bags under your eyes?
Do you leave dents where you sit
,Are you getting on a bit?
Will you survive
You must survive
When there's no love in town
This new century keeps bringing you down
All the places you have been
Trying to find a love supreme
A love supreme
Oh what are you really looking for?
Another partner in your life to
abuse and to adore?
Is it lovey dovey stuff,Do you need a bit of rough?
Get on your knees
Yeah turn down the love songs that you hear
'Cause you can't avoid the sentiment
That echoes in your ear
Saying love will stop the pain
Saying love will kill the fear
Do you believe
You must believe
When there's no love in town
This new century keeps bringing you down
All the places you have been
Trying to find a love supreme
A love supreme
I spy with my little eye
Something beginning with (ah)Got my back up
And now she's screaming
So I've got to turn the track up
Sit back and watch the royalties stack up
I know this girl she likes to switch teams
And I'm a fiend but I'm living for a love supreme
When there's no love in town
This new century keeps bringing you down
All the places you have been
Trying to find a love supreme
A love supreme
Come and live a love supreme
Don't let it get you down
Everybody lives for love


Supreme we shall be for 2006=).
from this pt.we can onli get better.
may this yr be ownage.

Friday, December 30, 2005

30th

jus now the orientation ppl called me. here i shallnote down the stuff so that i can rmbr without finding where i kept mi reference.
group/league whatever name: inferno
team/small group whatever name: innox
N.B. i apologize for ani speeling error since i didnt realli heard v quickly on the phone wat the person told me.she was in a rather rush certainly.
anyway the other details were wat i saw on the vj web.so rther redundant to post it here again.750 @ c oncourse ? or watver name.

anyway.heres a gay fact.
luis boa morte, captain of fulham, his name boa morte means sisterhood of good death.u will sae wat the hell.hahaha.i noe i aint the onli one surrprised.

life can only be understood backwards,
but it must be lived forwards.

constantly theres the temptation to glance back at the chapters of memories,
but i will turn back mi head,shut the wet eyes and go on writing mi own new chapter.
for u were but a book of thoughts.

Thursday, December 29, 2005

pissed

i m pissed wif miself.
i lost a fone.
i m a careless crap.
piece of shit.
i hate this.
im sorry to who i have disappointed.
im sorry.
damn call mi house.
dont trymi hp animore.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

liberated

i hv been liberated from the mental 枷锁that i was trapped within.
i can finallie breath wif ease.
relief mixed wif regrets.
but life goes on.
i will go on.so will u.so will evrione.what was was is was, and what is going to is what that matters.
slowlie counting down to orientation, where mi attention will finally be directly distracted.
i feel better each and evri moment.
the format is near there done completed.

i will look upon dis yr, as wat i told someone.
as one mixed wif so much elements.
remember a mixture isnt homogeneous?haha juz being gay.
emotions galore.across the spectrum.
and i already know that one dae all these willarrive.
yet anticipation and awarenesss does not make issues an inch simpler to solve.
as ppl moan abt hols ending. im glad it is going to end.no longer will i hav to think abt nth to do.
i seriously dont mind studying.thou it seemed such a torture just two months ago.and again it will be two years later.
thats why im such a freak.
u must had felt disgusted by mi mentality.
so have i miself.

he knew that he loved.he wanted to know who he hated.
boy isnt de chagny cool.

Monday, December 26, 2005

its all abt me

i am paranoid extreme.
i suffer occasionally from inferiority complex.
i am impatient and gets pissed at evriting that tests mi patience(or lack of it).
i think too much( all the time).
i am untidy(most of the time).
i am lazy(almost all the time)
i feel so deprived most of the time.
i am a pessimist( almost all the time).
i am proud( i do not like losing to ppl).
i am one wif more action than direction.
i do not see much pleasure in life as ppl normallie do.
i feel lonely almost all the times when im alone.(haha i duno if it makes sense)
i care abt how other ppl will feel too much.
i am not courteous.
i am mischievious.
i obviously cant spellproperly.
i listen to classicals.
i read phantom of the opera.
i feel sad over them.
i feel sad easily.
i am looking forwards to tings ppl dont look forward to.
i lie without thinking.
i am hardly the most honest person on earth.
i have little integrity.
i am not charitable.
i am rarely helpful.
i am often helpless.
i am nv gonna be a gd fren.
i am pissed over lots stuff.
i feel disturbed easily.
i have low tolerance for stuff.
this is end of part one.

aniwae.i hate irony and i cant get over it yet.but ur slowlie formatted away from mi mind.slowly but steadily.i do not noe if u r happie or sad.it does not matter to a mind formatting.i will keep formatting formatting n formatting.formatt formatt formatt. until u r erased.nv found recorded.totally forgotten.





apart from a tear or two.
i am mean n heartless.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

i tink i better leave right now b4 i fall ani deeper

想用一杯latte把你灌醉好让你能多爱我一点暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉早有人陪的你永远不会看见你和他在我面前证明我的爱只是愚昧你不懂我的那些憔悴是你永远不曾过的体会为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切你又狠狠逼退我的防备静静关上门来默数我的泪明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天直到那一天你会发现真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲曾经我以为我自己会后悔不想爱的太多痴心绝对为你落第一滴泪为你做任何改变也唤不回你对我的坚决

the lyrics is almost how i feel. thou no one i loved.no one i liked. but the feelings are similar.
im drowning in dis sorrow.drownign till i forgt that im actuallie drowning.

the phantom died happily becoz christine allowed him to kiss her forehead without ani retaliation.

even the phantom was happy.

thou it was christine wif de chagny in the end.

evrione was happy.

even the phantom who was dead.

whose ugliness of appearance can nv match his voice of angel.

love prevails so inexplicably.

Saturday, December 24, 2005

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:
6.9
Mind:
6.3
Body:
9.4
Spirit:
7.3
Friends/Family:
4
Love:
0.8
Finance:
6.1
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

therefore much is to be desired. u noe wat 0.8 means)=.

so christine daee was together wif victome de chagny(raoul) in the end.love within the opera.

man.im still trying to get thru this turbulent stage.

make me forget u.wont u?i want to forget.forget.forget.

becoz its making me feel ill.

im trying so hard.

and i still wonder.

how cld dis evr happen.

irony.

yes irony.

those who noe wat i want to sae will noe wat i want to sae.

those else who dont.

im sorry.

im sad.

Friday, December 23, 2005

juz a hi and a bye

说了再见是否就能不再想念说了抱歉是否就能理解一切眼泪代替你亲吻我的脸我的世界忽然漫天白雪拇指之间还残留你的昨天一片一片怎么听见完全七月七日晴忽然下起了大雪不敢睁开眼希望是我的幻觉我站在地球边眼睁睁看着雪覆盖你来的那条街七月七日晴黑夜忽然变白天我失去知觉看着相爱的极限我望着地平线天空无际无边听不见你道别拇指之间还残留你的昨天一片一片怎么听见完全七月七日晴忽然下起了大雪不敢睁开眼希望是我的幻觉我站在地球边眼睁睁看着雪覆盖你来的那条街七月七日晴黑夜忽然变白天我失去知觉看着相爱的极限我望着地平线天空无际无边听不见你道别七月七日晴忽然下起了大雪不敢睁开眼希望是我的幻觉我站在地球边眼睁睁看着雪覆盖你来的那条街七月七日晴我失去知觉天空无际无边
i noe nobodyw ill read the lyrics on top. i juz wanna sae.
let me gaze on the form below me,
while from yonder ether blue,
look how the star of eve, bright and tender,
lingers over me,
to love thy beauty too!

god noes wat phantom of opera can do to me)=

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

todae is tuesdae the 13th

so boring its ard 20 more daez or so when we can go to some jc and become like some noobs not noeing aniting again.the 3rd time ur feeling dis in ur life.once when ur p1, once ur sec1 and now once ur jc1.hmm.
some ppl said leornado da vinci was homosexual.
that means hes gay.hahaha.
and oh i went walking ard macritchie on sunday.spent almost 4 hrs there.
the treetops trail was gd.evrione pls go there.i mean ok la its actly nth much but comeon look at some greenery heal ur urbanized televised computerized handphonized and PS2/Xboxized and last but not least bookized eyes.gd vision.
saw some mosquitoes wif silver linings and silver eyes.
saw an ant as big as a finger segment.
saw tay pin hui filiming some shows.
so 4b chalet is next mon.
but maybe i can onli go on tue and wed.
ok la ok la i noe u all want me there la.nah.
they sae in america if u type baked bunnies as naked bunnies u aare in deep shit.becoz the govt tracks ur freaking emails and they screw u becoz naked bunies is some underage pornography.and thats how an american priest went into deep shit due to his typo email.
lax la.
america gt bush.
tts why so gay.
go www.google.com
type miserable failure
and click im feeling lucky.
haha cheersx/

Saturday, December 10, 2005

yawnz

as the time pass by,
and the clouds fly high.
i scream to the blues,
and wished i was cool.
can anyone hear the cries,
or is it just a lonely sigh.
stretching out our wings,
ready as ever to spring.
we chill in the dark,
in a life with no spark.
we make so much noise,
because we have little toys.
i looked at everione,
none of them looked fun.
as my eyes swept thru the floor,
it stopped at the door.
out came the knock,
that scared the scardy birds' flock.
i dare not think proper,
and could not look upon mi shoulder.
i opened the door slowly,
and what i saw stunned me.
it was a moment of pause,
before i realize the invisible force.
in this lonely night,
where the moon light has no one to fight.
the doubts were cleared,
and we shall hold no fear.
if u r feeling troubled,
relieved u will be feeling doubled.
live life to the fullest,
and u will be the coolest.
as ur soul sails around the openness,
the shadow it seems will never stir.
negatives may be laid,
harshes may be said.
but till the day your lie is true,
i will always promise you.
that the sun will never shine,
unless u r always fine.

done wif the shit, just wasted 10min.cheers